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I am usually a nice person but lately that doesn’t come naturally to me. I find myself getting frustrated and angry too easily. The worst part is that I know that the things that are upsetting me are cositas – little things. I feel like my tolerance and patience levels have dropped like the out-going tide before a tsunami. I’m not quisquillosa, yet lately if anyone so much as breaths the wrong way near me, I feel like I’m going to lose my mind.
I think the problem is that I’m introverted, and introverted people require time alone to recharge. With Suegra living with us, plus the niños home for the summer, I never get that. It exhausts me to never be able to complete a thought without the kids barging in and asking me for a snack while a telenovela blasts from the television in the next room.
Last night I found myself kicking a soccer ball up against the wall in the bedroom repeatedly for a solid 15 minutes in order to compose myself. This has become one of my coping mechanisms. My husband used to chide me as if I were a niña playing ball in the house. He used to say I’d damage the walls. Now he leaves me alone because a damaged wall is better than the alternative.
Today even kicking the soccer ball didn’t make me feel better and when my husband came home, I explained to him how I was feeling… He listened until I was finished and then after a minute, he offered to buy me ice cream.
I can see why he thought ice cream was the solution. Ice cream has been the solution in the past and why stray from a tactic that works? But I had to explain to him why ice cream wouldn’t fix this. Of course, my calm, rational explanation came out more like, “I don’t want ice cream! I want to be alone!”, followed by sobbing.
My husband handed over the car keys and told me to go.
I got into the car and started to drive, sin rumbo y sin dirección. I listened to bachata music and just enjoyed the luxury of uninterrupted thought. Eventually I stopped in a parking lot, pulled out the moleskine journal a friend gave me earlier this year and began to write.
So, today I finally got that pedacito of solitude I needed, but I go to bed knowing that mañana is another day and I won’t always get to escape to a deserted parking lot. Tomorrow I may just have to settle for ice cream, but I’m prepared to demand sprinkles.
“Cómo volver a ser feliz…
Cuando este día se parece al fin del mundo?
Cómo volver a ser feliz…
Si tu partida me ha tirado a lo profundo?
Solo tú sabes mi amor….
Cómo volver a ser feliz…
Más que hablar
Solo intento despertar algún motivo en tu conciencia
Solo quiero en recompensa encontrar lo que tú eras…
-Luis Enrique/Cómo Volver a Ser Feliz
Checa esto! I have a small piece, (“Diferencias Culturales En Los Cumpleaños”) on page 47 of the June/July issue of Ser Padres, (Spanish language counterpart of Parents magazine!)
Oye, I know I didn’t win a Latin Grammy but I want to take this opportunity to give a special gracias to my family, friends and readers who have encouraged me to keep writing, to the bloggers and writers who have mentored me and allowed me to guest post, and to my husband for putting up with my locuras.
I wrote an article for SpanglishBaby.com for their week of Mamás Blogueras Christmas traditions edition, called “Christmas Time: A Complex Dance Between Two Cultures“
And the blog post I wrote about Latino vs. Anglo Birthday Parties, was featured at TikiTikiBlog.com.
Feel free to visit me over there and I encourage you to look around and meet other awesome Latinas and Latina-hearted people with great information and stories to share :)